*sigh*
Here I go again. Three days in a row with the stomach issue rearing it's ugly head. Tonight is the worst of the 3 and I just feel like hiding my face in my pillow and crying myself to sleep. I can find nothing that seems to make it flare up, nothing new to eat, not upset, not over excited. Nothing. I feel so discouraged. Just about the time I start to feel comfortable and optimistic, back it comes.
I missed out on family night because of this.
I.....I.....I wish I was a real girl again.
...lone tear falls creekside
Friday, December 9, 2011
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
After the Thanks...
So it has been a while since I had much to say. Well, rather since I have felt like "saying" it as I do not type well. Someday I shall have a gadget into which I speak and it will magically type the words for me. Someday...
Our Thanksving Day was nice but oh what a comedy of errors the whole day was. I am not even sure I could relate just how much went awry. In the end...several hours after the scheduled time...we all sat down to eat and it mostly all tasted very good, but if you look closely at the pictures (that I shall never post *g*) you will see that while my hair was freshly, albeit just minutes before dinner, washed, it is not coiffed. I simply forgot to fix it! I also don't have any makeup on, I didn't forget it, I just simply didn't even think of it.
Shall I tell you about the bread machine not mixing and kneading the dough I had so painstakingly made for rolls? How about the blowing up of the microwave? Aforementioned rolls that were redone taking twice the amount of time to bake thus taking up all the oven space? The forgetting of making the PUNKIN PIE?
Oy...what a silly day. Truly, it had gotten so crazy that with each catastrophe all we could do was giggle and make do. Good plan and one I am not sure a couple years ago I could have implemented. But things change, we grow and we move on.
This past year and a half has been a time of growing for me, a refining in the fire, as the Bible verse talks about. I didn't chose it, I don't think I ever would chose it if given the choice. But there it was anyway whether I liked it or not (I didn't. I don't!) But it has changed me and much of that change is for the better, I know it is.
I am a calmer, quieter, more accepting girl than I was. I am better able to change tracts and tactics if need be. I have learned to lower my expectations of myself and others and not have lofty hard to acheive goals. I have learned to see the beauty in simple things. That mantle can be lovely with just a few lil punkins because I could not get out to gather mass amounts of colored leaves to add to it. It shall be lovely with just a single branch of evergreen or a few colored Christmas balls laid on it. A tree can be magical all by itself when the light of the fireplace plays over it's branches. And the pine scented teddy bear can adaquatly thrill the olfactory senses because a "real" Christmas tree is not in the cards. Gentle Holiday music playing is a joy and a quiet day with a nice pot of soup in the crockpot is a comfort. Having any one of the family here to share this with is bliss of the best sort, even if it is just CreekBoy...*gentle chuckles*
The hubby, the kidslings, grandkidlings, furred and skinned, can tract in debris, spread mud or rain everywhere, make a mess, use my "good" stuff and play with my "toys", eat all the good food, eat all the bad food...lol. And things can get broken or lost. I really am okay with all that. I am more patient, more tolerant, more understsnding, more accepting of so many things and situations. Because I am changing, being refined, coming to terms with what will matter most both today and when I am gone. People, it is the people in your life, that is the most important, the most precious.
I want to be remembered as that person who loved her family to distraction, that gave anything and everything and who always had time for a talk, a giggle, a hug, a snuggle, a story. I may not be able to play chase, hike up a mountain, cook a five course meal or travel across the counrty in a marathon dash. I accept that those days are forever gone. But I don't want to have the memory of me tainted by my illness, I am so much more than my illness!
Yes, I do understand that it has changed me, limited me, in many ways diminished me.....but it also has made me more than I was, made my heart bigger than it was. As my outside world has shrunk more and more, my inside world have gotten bigger and bigger. And since this past year and a half, it has gotten better and better. I am evolving in a good way. Thru all the pain, all the sickness, all the dark days and darker nights, it is good, I am good.
And how much better a way could one end this season of thankfulness than to say...It is good...?
Lisa, thankfully, creekside...
Our Thanksving Day was nice but oh what a comedy of errors the whole day was. I am not even sure I could relate just how much went awry. In the end...several hours after the scheduled time...we all sat down to eat and it mostly all tasted very good, but if you look closely at the pictures (that I shall never post *g*) you will see that while my hair was freshly, albeit just minutes before dinner, washed, it is not coiffed. I simply forgot to fix it! I also don't have any makeup on, I didn't forget it, I just simply didn't even think of it.
Shall I tell you about the bread machine not mixing and kneading the dough I had so painstakingly made for rolls? How about the blowing up of the microwave? Aforementioned rolls that were redone taking twice the amount of time to bake thus taking up all the oven space? The forgetting of making the PUNKIN PIE?
Oy...what a silly day. Truly, it had gotten so crazy that with each catastrophe all we could do was giggle and make do. Good plan and one I am not sure a couple years ago I could have implemented. But things change, we grow and we move on.
This past year and a half has been a time of growing for me, a refining in the fire, as the Bible verse talks about. I didn't chose it, I don't think I ever would chose it if given the choice. But there it was anyway whether I liked it or not (I didn't. I don't!) But it has changed me and much of that change is for the better, I know it is.
I am a calmer, quieter, more accepting girl than I was. I am better able to change tracts and tactics if need be. I have learned to lower my expectations of myself and others and not have lofty hard to acheive goals. I have learned to see the beauty in simple things. That mantle can be lovely with just a few lil punkins because I could not get out to gather mass amounts of colored leaves to add to it. It shall be lovely with just a single branch of evergreen or a few colored Christmas balls laid on it. A tree can be magical all by itself when the light of the fireplace plays over it's branches. And the pine scented teddy bear can adaquatly thrill the olfactory senses because a "real" Christmas tree is not in the cards. Gentle Holiday music playing is a joy and a quiet day with a nice pot of soup in the crockpot is a comfort. Having any one of the family here to share this with is bliss of the best sort, even if it is just CreekBoy...*gentle chuckles*
The hubby, the kidslings, grandkidlings, furred and skinned, can tract in debris, spread mud or rain everywhere, make a mess, use my "good" stuff and play with my "toys", eat all the good food, eat all the bad food...lol. And things can get broken or lost. I really am okay with all that. I am more patient, more tolerant, more understsnding, more accepting of so many things and situations. Because I am changing, being refined, coming to terms with what will matter most both today and when I am gone. People, it is the people in your life, that is the most important, the most precious.
I want to be remembered as that person who loved her family to distraction, that gave anything and everything and who always had time for a talk, a giggle, a hug, a snuggle, a story. I may not be able to play chase, hike up a mountain, cook a five course meal or travel across the counrty in a marathon dash. I accept that those days are forever gone. But I don't want to have the memory of me tainted by my illness, I am so much more than my illness!
Yes, I do understand that it has changed me, limited me, in many ways diminished me.....but it also has made me more than I was, made my heart bigger than it was. As my outside world has shrunk more and more, my inside world have gotten bigger and bigger. And since this past year and a half, it has gotten better and better. I am evolving in a good way. Thru all the pain, all the sickness, all the dark days and darker nights, it is good, I am good.
And how much better a way could one end this season of thankfulness than to say...It is good...?
Lisa, thankfully, creekside...
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
No sun today...
I have such a hard time not falling into my self-ascribed role of Lil Mary Sunshine.
Somewhere along the timeline of my life I was given or mistakenly assumed the idea that one (by that I mean those of us of the female persuasion, guys seemed to be exempt from this requitement) must at all times put on a happy face or at least a quietly non grumpy face, regardless of what is really going on inside or outside of ourselves. I did this for so many years, too many years.
Today, I am simply too tired to do this. I am in too much pain to do this. Nothing earth shattering is going on, no sobbing in a fetal position in the floor of scaulding hot shower sized pain. just a throbbing cold I-will-not-relent kinda pain. A front is moving in, drizzly, gray, day, not really chilly but less temperate than the past days. These can be my worst days, the changing weather days. And being dark doesn't help me be Lil Mary Sunshine. So.....there you go.
I hate to post downer stuff. I hate to talk downer stuff. If I let everyone know how I was really feeling all the time, nobody would ever want to talk to me...lol. Because I am always in pain. Always. It never ever stops. Ever. It is merely a queston of what level it is on and it has been this way for 25 years or more.
I can't think about that, how long it has been, it makes me sad to think about how I used to be and how long I have been like this. I can't think about the future. If I had to really face the possibility of 25 more years of this, I would go insane. I have become quite good at just being here today, mostly in the now of today. It is how I get by.
My Lil Mary Sunshine act helps alot with this. But today...today I have no sunshine, it is a dark drizzly not quite temperate day and I simply do not wish to play at the role. So I shan't but I will apologize to you if you are a hater of anything "cloudy" and beg you to merely come back another day when the sun is shining...creekside
Somewhere along the timeline of my life I was given or mistakenly assumed the idea that one (by that I mean those of us of the female persuasion, guys seemed to be exempt from this requitement) must at all times put on a happy face or at least a quietly non grumpy face, regardless of what is really going on inside or outside of ourselves. I did this for so many years, too many years.
Today, I am simply too tired to do this. I am in too much pain to do this. Nothing earth shattering is going on, no sobbing in a fetal position in the floor of scaulding hot shower sized pain. just a throbbing cold I-will-not-relent kinda pain. A front is moving in, drizzly, gray, day, not really chilly but less temperate than the past days. These can be my worst days, the changing weather days. And being dark doesn't help me be Lil Mary Sunshine. So.....there you go.
I hate to post downer stuff. I hate to talk downer stuff. If I let everyone know how I was really feeling all the time, nobody would ever want to talk to me...lol. Because I am always in pain. Always. It never ever stops. Ever. It is merely a queston of what level it is on and it has been this way for 25 years or more.
I can't think about that, how long it has been, it makes me sad to think about how I used to be and how long I have been like this. I can't think about the future. If I had to really face the possibility of 25 more years of this, I would go insane. I have become quite good at just being here today, mostly in the now of today. It is how I get by.
My Lil Mary Sunshine act helps alot with this. But today...today I have no sunshine, it is a dark drizzly not quite temperate day and I simply do not wish to play at the role. So I shan't but I will apologize to you if you are a hater of anything "cloudy" and beg you to merely come back another day when the sun is shining...creekside
Friday, November 18, 2011
Lovely to look at but do not touch Friday
What in the world does that mean, you ask.....
Well, I'll tell you. Today is such a beautiful "Autumn" day, sunny to the point of shimmery after the monsoonlike rains of the past day and a half. Huge droplets of moisture are hanging on the golden and red leaves still attached to the trees. Those leaves lying on the ground are glistening, too. Altogether a lovely sight to see from the picture window creekside.
But "Whoa, Nelly" if you dare step outside. It is in the low 40's today with a harsh gusty wind whooshing thru from time to time. Brrr.....not lovely at all deckside.
So Mr. Fursome just had to do his business quick like a bunny because I could not stay out there very long with him. Our fence is still down, that 16 foot section that was taken out during the hurricane back in the summer. The one that took out our biggest tree creekside that took out 4 others along with the fence, as it came down. Sad. So now we have to escort the furkid when he needs to go out because his Mum does not trust that said kid will not see a squirrel, raccoon, deer, beaver, groundhog or fox thru said opening and take off for a lil traipse thru the woods to play with said critters...lol... His Daddy thinks he is a good sensible boy who would just politely chase aforementioned critters out of the yard they might have unintentionally wandered into.
Pfffttt.....pardon my French.
So there is the story behind the rather odd title. And that is our day today here, creekside. : )
Well, I'll tell you. Today is such a beautiful "Autumn" day, sunny to the point of shimmery after the monsoonlike rains of the past day and a half. Huge droplets of moisture are hanging on the golden and red leaves still attached to the trees. Those leaves lying on the ground are glistening, too. Altogether a lovely sight to see from the picture window creekside.
But "Whoa, Nelly" if you dare step outside. It is in the low 40's today with a harsh gusty wind whooshing thru from time to time. Brrr.....not lovely at all deckside.
So Mr. Fursome just had to do his business quick like a bunny because I could not stay out there very long with him. Our fence is still down, that 16 foot section that was taken out during the hurricane back in the summer. The one that took out our biggest tree creekside that took out 4 others along with the fence, as it came down. Sad. So now we have to escort the furkid when he needs to go out because his Mum does not trust that said kid will not see a squirrel, raccoon, deer, beaver, groundhog or fox thru said opening and take off for a lil traipse thru the woods to play with said critters...lol... His Daddy thinks he is a good sensible boy who would just politely chase aforementioned critters out of the yard they might have unintentionally wandered into.
Pfffttt.....pardon my French.
So there is the story behind the rather odd title. And that is our day today here, creekside. : )
Thursday, November 17, 2011
11/17/11 Thankful Thursday
Yet again, it is Thursday. Maybe it is because Thursday has a purpose to it that I seem to take more note of it. ?
It is a really cold really wet day today, giving a glimpse to what the next months are bringing. I am thankful it is not yet winter. My bones are already cold and achy, needing 5 layers on my right hip. Plus a blankie and usually a hot pad. I am not thankful for the weather ahead. But today am thankful to be inside under the quilts with a hot pad.
I am a bit blue today for some reason, maybe the weather, the pain, being home alone. I wish I had a fire going, hot spicey chocolate in a Holiday cup, listening to Holiday music with all my fam around.
But wait.....this is supposed to be a Thankful Thursday post.......so maybe I will just pretend it is Moody Monday instead???
Nah...let me just take a minute, I'll get back to where I am supposed to be...
I am thankful that I got my new microwaveable heat pad from Amazon. I am sitting on it now. A couple of weeks ago I was heating up my flaxseed pad, late one night after having taken a sleeping pill, in the dark, with no glasses on. Need I say more? No, I didn't think so. Let me just advise that 20 min is waaaay too long a time to heat flax seeds in a microwave. The oven and back part of the house still smell wretched. I truly think a new oven will have to be purchased. And a bad time to have to keep windows in said part of house cracked open. *sigh*
Oops....moodiness seeping thru again.....
Hmmm.....
I am thankful for the "criver" (a not quite river + bigger than a creek = criver) running wild and free today after the massive amounts of rain we have had since last night. I love it when it is like this. So up I got myself and trekked creekside to take some pix to show you. And I am THANKFUL to be able to say that (1) I made it back alive and dry and (2) my mood is much improved. : )
So here is said pix...
Before rain...
Today...
As you can see...a big difference, indeed. No walking down by the creek for us today.
So for now, Bay and I will leave you.......criverside.
It is a really cold really wet day today, giving a glimpse to what the next months are bringing. I am thankful it is not yet winter. My bones are already cold and achy, needing 5 layers on my right hip. Plus a blankie and usually a hot pad. I am not thankful for the weather ahead. But today am thankful to be inside under the quilts with a hot pad.
I am a bit blue today for some reason, maybe the weather, the pain, being home alone. I wish I had a fire going, hot spicey chocolate in a Holiday cup, listening to Holiday music with all my fam around.
But wait.....this is supposed to be a Thankful Thursday post.......so maybe I will just pretend it is Moody Monday instead???
Nah...let me just take a minute, I'll get back to where I am supposed to be...
I am thankful that I got my new microwaveable heat pad from Amazon. I am sitting on it now. A couple of weeks ago I was heating up my flaxseed pad, late one night after having taken a sleeping pill, in the dark, with no glasses on. Need I say more? No, I didn't think so. Let me just advise that 20 min is waaaay too long a time to heat flax seeds in a microwave. The oven and back part of the house still smell wretched. I truly think a new oven will have to be purchased. And a bad time to have to keep windows in said part of house cracked open. *sigh*
Oops....moodiness seeping thru again.....
Hmmm.....
I am thankful for the "criver" (a not quite river + bigger than a creek = criver) running wild and free today after the massive amounts of rain we have had since last night. I love it when it is like this. So up I got myself and trekked creekside to take some pix to show you. And I am THANKFUL to be able to say that (1) I made it back alive and dry and (2) my mood is much improved. : )
So here is said pix...
As you can see...a big difference, indeed. No walking down by the creek for us today.
So for now, Bay and I will leave you.......criverside.
Friday, November 11, 2011
11-10 Thankful Thursday
I know, I know...it is actually Friday, but I missed yesterday because I was recouping from a big thankful event for me from the night before. Two of my best guys, DH NatureBoyCameraMan and DS BaseballBoy, along with DS's best girl, went to see one of my fav singing groups: Straight No Chaser!!
I had a wonderful time! I have been sending round, each holiday season, their video of "The 12 Days of Christmas" since it 1st was on youtube and finally I got to see it in person. How fab is that?!?
They took us across the gammit. Buddy Holly to Beiber. Beetles to Buble. Gaga to Jackson. Elvis to Otis and just about everywhere in between. Loved loved loved it. I could have sat there (dancing in my seat and clapping to the music) for days...lol.
And today I had the privilege of watching my lil Sweetie in the 2nd grade (with another lil sweetie in my lap) doing a tribute show for Veterans. Her biggest wish for the day was that her Uncle FlyBoy had been in the audience. But, well, he is busy serving his country and for that I am again grateful. He is a wonderful man and I am so proud of him. : )
I also got to Skype with FlyBoy, his lovely wife and their Lil Guy, my 3rd lil sweetie, this week. Another thankful event.
I am thankful that I got to "prepare" Thanksgiving Dinner for my Penny, Queen of England, thanks to Abel and Cole, and I didn't even have to wash pots and dishes...very kewl.
All and all, a week just full of things to be thankful for. And for that I am thankful.....creekside
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I had a wonderful time! I have been sending round, each holiday season, their video of "The 12 Days of Christmas" since it 1st was on youtube and finally I got to see it in person. How fab is that?!?
They took us across the gammit. Buddy Holly to Beiber. Beetles to Buble. Gaga to Jackson. Elvis to Otis and just about everywhere in between. Loved loved loved it. I could have sat there (dancing in my seat and clapping to the music) for days...lol.
And today I had the privilege of watching my lil Sweetie in the 2nd grade (with another lil sweetie in my lap) doing a tribute show for Veterans. Her biggest wish for the day was that her Uncle FlyBoy had been in the audience. But, well, he is busy serving his country and for that I am again grateful. He is a wonderful man and I am so proud of him. : )
I also got to Skype with FlyBoy, his lovely wife and their Lil Guy, my 3rd lil sweetie, this week. Another thankful event.
I am thankful that I got to "prepare" Thanksgiving Dinner for my Penny, Queen of England, thanks to Abel and Cole, and I didn't even have to wash pots and dishes...very kewl.
All and all, a week just full of things to be thankful for. And for that I am thankful.....creekside
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Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Tuesday...
Tuesday is a rather uninspiring day, in my opinion. Thankfully it is not Monday but it really does not have anything that makes it stand out in the week. I wonder why?
Usually I am recovering from Monday on Tuesday so it remains a quiet day in my week. Rarely do I make plans to do anything on Tuesday. I simply haven't made up enough energy for anything yet. So I read, sit on the deck if it is a nice enough day to do so like it was today, check out facebook and blogs that I follow, maybe watch tv but not usually (oddly enough that takes a bit of energy that hasn't been built up enough). Like I said, rather uninspiring.
Oh well...at least it is not Monday. I do so dislike Monday.
And that is all I got to say about that.......creekside
Usually I am recovering from Monday on Tuesday so it remains a quiet day in my week. Rarely do I make plans to do anything on Tuesday. I simply haven't made up enough energy for anything yet. So I read, sit on the deck if it is a nice enough day to do so like it was today, check out facebook and blogs that I follow, maybe watch tv but not usually (oddly enough that takes a bit of energy that hasn't been built up enough). Like I said, rather uninspiring.
Oh well...at least it is not Monday. I do so dislike Monday.
And that is all I got to say about that.......creekside
Monday, November 7, 2011
Moody Monday...
And so it is Monday...again...I really do not care for Mondays. Even as a child, I disliked Mondays.
I am always a little blue because the weekend is over and everyone is back to the ole grind. I never do all I want on the weekends, there is never the time and there is, now, never the energy. Added to those feelings are the now typical tiredness and general feeling of "just not quite right" that my body has to go thru every single Monday of my life because I have gotten even the least bit off my normally very quiet, still life. I pay for whatever play I do. Thankfully the price varies, giving me the motivation to get out of bed and do things on Saturday and Sunday, even if all it is is moving to the LR or den and maybe fixing something yummy in the crockpot, even if I don't quite feel up to it. Sometimes, all the price is is just making sure I keep it lowkey on Monday. Other days I live in firey agony. Sometimes, like today, I hover somewhere in between the two.
But I do remember that I used to be a real girl with a real life and real activities. A girl who never even in her wildest dreams imagined having to pay for having said life. One who only had to take a quick power nap if she overdid. One who lived to make others lives happy, secure, fun, well fed, healthy.
I just wish I could know ahead of time which weekends I will have to pay the heavy tolls on and which weekends would let me slide easily into the new week ahead. Sometimes, I wish I had a crystal ball. Mostly though, I guess I am thankful I don't know what the future holds as it is so terribly easy to get overwhelmed thinking that for the rest of my life I will be a shadow of a girl living in the hazy gray areas of half-life, not really here but not in the beyond. It gets really lonely here in the shadows, it gets heavy here because the burden never really lightens and it just plain hurts--physically and emotionally--to live in this place.
I wish I was a real girl again.....creekside.
I am always a little blue because the weekend is over and everyone is back to the ole grind. I never do all I want on the weekends, there is never the time and there is, now, never the energy. Added to those feelings are the now typical tiredness and general feeling of "just not quite right" that my body has to go thru every single Monday of my life because I have gotten even the least bit off my normally very quiet, still life. I pay for whatever play I do. Thankfully the price varies, giving me the motivation to get out of bed and do things on Saturday and Sunday, even if all it is is moving to the LR or den and maybe fixing something yummy in the crockpot, even if I don't quite feel up to it. Sometimes, all the price is is just making sure I keep it lowkey on Monday. Other days I live in firey agony. Sometimes, like today, I hover somewhere in between the two.
But I do remember that I used to be a real girl with a real life and real activities. A girl who never even in her wildest dreams imagined having to pay for having said life. One who only had to take a quick power nap if she overdid. One who lived to make others lives happy, secure, fun, well fed, healthy.
I just wish I could know ahead of time which weekends I will have to pay the heavy tolls on and which weekends would let me slide easily into the new week ahead. Sometimes, I wish I had a crystal ball. Mostly though, I guess I am thankful I don't know what the future holds as it is so terribly easy to get overwhelmed thinking that for the rest of my life I will be a shadow of a girl living in the hazy gray areas of half-life, not really here but not in the beyond. It gets really lonely here in the shadows, it gets heavy here because the burden never really lightens and it just plain hurts--physically and emotionally--to live in this place.
I wish I was a real girl again.....creekside.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
It is the weekend... : )
And I wait all week for them. I love having not to think about schedules and waiting till all the workers in the fam have finished their workday. I pay on Mondays, every week without fail, because my normal day's quiet schedule is even the least bit less quiet. But still and all, it is worth it.
Today is beautiful again. What a lovely Autumn we are having here. But in light of my way more then usual exciting Halloween activities, I am still paying a heavy toll so shan't be doing really anything at all. But that is ok...I have a fire going in the fireplace and my 2 bestest guys in the house and I am content here. : )
Hope it is just as lovely where you are.....creekside or cityside..... : )
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Thankful Thursday...11-3-11
I am thankful today for the beautiful Autumn weather we are enjoying...
...creekside
...creekside
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Susan and the Boy...
So...day before yesterday I clicked on this link to listen to Susan's new album. To my amazement, my big shepard/collie Furguy who is always in "alert" mode made a ahh-umm sound in the back of his thoat, laid his head down on the bed, then promptly rolled onto his back (NOT a frequent thing for him at all to get that relaxed) & went into chill mode still making those happy sounds from time to time! He did the same thing yesterday. Today, well, I bought it for him. He is a happy furkid right now. I guess something on the way this particular album is done just clicks with his brain waves. I have her other ones but he hasn't done this with them. "Oh My Love" is one of his favs on the album.....awww. : )
Here is the link from AOL Music to listen to the album in it's entirety. Give it a listen, it is very nice. Love this woman. : )
Bay and Lisa.....chillin creekside soothin the Savage Beast
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Afterween...
Tiger Boy
Needless to say, today I am beyond bushed. But it is worth the price because I did have fun with the kidlings, got to visit at the neighbor's for only the 2nd time in the 12 years we have lived here, and was able to eat that candy with gusto...all in all a fair price to pay for all that.
I am learning an important lesson here lately though, one I don't care for but is something I need to know. Never did I question that negative emotions are bad for my health, I can quickly feel them in my tummy and usually in my muscles and energy levels...unfortunately good emotions are bad for it, as well. : ( I am beginning to quickly feel the same drains when I get over-stimulated in a happy way as well. I so do not want to have to be flat-line in my emotions. So what do I do about this???
If I play, I pay...so always the question must be answered "Is it worth the price??"
Only each event will tell. But for today...it is sweet creekside.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Happy Halloween...
And so...today was coffee and a twix bar for breakfast. The breakfast of champions and food of the gods...lol. Hey, it was in honor of the day! *G*
It is a lovely day here creekside and you can almost feel in the very air, the anticipation of the night's visitations. We are ready for all the lil ghosties and goblins with yet again about 10 times the amount of goodies that we will ultimately need for giving out. I'm getting better though at buying candy. I made sure to have the grandkidlings favs, of course, but the other stuff?? Good stuff, all, not the cheapy deepy stuff that really not even kids like. But I was very very careful NOT to get our favs, in case of mass leftovers, but also careful to not get stuff we hate in case of mass leftovers...lol.
Ah...life...it is all about balance, is it not???
So I shall wear my usual ancient but still really cute Halloween shirt, maybe crazy makeup and crazy hair. Don't know what NatureBoyCameraMan will do (he usually hides in the den with the Beast while I get the door) but I do for sure know that the Beast will not be wearing his usual shirt as it has been really too tight for a couple of years now. I hate to give that tradition up as he and sis TipperGirl always looked so cute in them together. I did try to find another for him in several places but to no avail. : ( I'm thinkin I will let him borrow Dad's pouncing tiger shirt so he can really BE the beast he truly is...*G*...I'll post pics.
So that's life here, creekside. Hope your day is filled with lots of treats and only mildly amusing tricks. : )
It is a lovely day here creekside and you can almost feel in the very air, the anticipation of the night's visitations. We are ready for all the lil ghosties and goblins with yet again about 10 times the amount of goodies that we will ultimately need for giving out. I'm getting better though at buying candy. I made sure to have the grandkidlings favs, of course, but the other stuff?? Good stuff, all, not the cheapy deepy stuff that really not even kids like. But I was very very careful NOT to get our favs, in case of mass leftovers, but also careful to not get stuff we hate in case of mass leftovers...lol.
Ah...life...it is all about balance, is it not???
So I shall wear my usual ancient but still really cute Halloween shirt, maybe crazy makeup and crazy hair. Don't know what NatureBoyCameraMan will do (he usually hides in the den with the Beast while I get the door) but I do for sure know that the Beast will not be wearing his usual shirt as it has been really too tight for a couple of years now. I hate to give that tradition up as he and sis TipperGirl always looked so cute in them together. I did try to find another for him in several places but to no avail. : ( I'm thinkin I will let him borrow Dad's pouncing tiger shirt so he can really BE the beast he truly is...*G*...I'll post pics.
So that's life here, creekside. Hope your day is filled with lots of treats and only mildly amusing tricks. : )
Friday, October 28, 2011
Nothing much...
So it is a chilly rainy Friday nite and I am under the blankies with my heated flax seed pad, perusing the net's foodie sites as I recoup from a nasty tummy bug. I guess that means that, although not well enough to really eat, at least the sight and thought of food isn't making me rush to the bathroom gagging. That's definately huge progress.
So maybe tomorrow or Sunday will find me ready and willing to brave the larders for more than crackers and mashed potatoes.
Funny thing about this bug is that if the whole rest of the fam had not had it, I wouldn't really know it as anything different that what the last year has been. Uggg...
Another funny thing is.....I am not sure what it says about me that while basically unable to eat for the last 12 months, the majority of my media is about FOOD. TV, mags, facebook, blogs, cookbooks, websites on the net. I don't know...I guess I just refuse to give up my dream of being able not only to eat whatever my lil veggie heart desires but to also be able to cook what my poor lil sick body finds intriguing.
I LOVE food. The way it feels, looks, smells, tastes and all the wonderous ways one can prepare the bounty of the earth. My greatest dream (well...there is the baby grand, the swimming pool and the log home in the mountains) is to have a spectacular chef's kitchen, fully equiped, tons of natural light all around, laid out to perfection and homey and beautiful. *sigh*
Oh well...these are just my thoughts on this rainy, chilly Friday night creekside...
So maybe tomorrow or Sunday will find me ready and willing to brave the larders for more than crackers and mashed potatoes.
Funny thing about this bug is that if the whole rest of the fam had not had it, I wouldn't really know it as anything different that what the last year has been. Uggg...
Another funny thing is.....I am not sure what it says about me that while basically unable to eat for the last 12 months, the majority of my media is about FOOD. TV, mags, facebook, blogs, cookbooks, websites on the net. I don't know...I guess I just refuse to give up my dream of being able not only to eat whatever my lil veggie heart desires but to also be able to cook what my poor lil sick body finds intriguing.
I LOVE food. The way it feels, looks, smells, tastes and all the wonderous ways one can prepare the bounty of the earth. My greatest dream (well...there is the baby grand, the swimming pool and the log home in the mountains) is to have a spectacular chef's kitchen, fully equiped, tons of natural light all around, laid out to perfection and homey and beautiful. *sigh*
Oh well...these are just my thoughts on this rainy, chilly Friday night creekside...
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Thankful Thursday
Thankful Thursday...
It seems to me like there are more Thursdays in the week than any other day...that said, here are a few of the things I am thankful for today::
I am thankful that all my biopsies and bloodwork came back negative!
I am also thankful that all the test results are in. I do not do "waiting" well.
I am thankful that, even though I was told by several different sources, including the Doc, to call his office to get the results and when I called was a lil sketchily told they were not allowed to give me the results that Doc would call me Wed night as per his regular patient call schedule...thus leading me to fear the worst since they could not do it.....that in the end all was well. (Gosh, that was a long sentence! Did'ja catch all that?)
I am thankful for help I got from Lauren and Jo at *********** for helping me get an overseas transaction accomplished so a lil surprise prezzie can be delivered tomorrow to Penny, The Queen of England.
And so...thus ends my spurt of energy, I am out of spoons. Maybe I shall take a wee nap before dinner time. Which I am thankful I will not be having to cook as I am coming out of a 48 hr tummy bug. But that is a story for another day.
Keepin on keepin...creekside
I am thankful that all my biopsies and bloodwork came back negative!
I am also thankful that all the test results are in. I do not do "waiting" well.
I am thankful that, even though I was told by several different sources, including the Doc, to call his office to get the results and when I called was a lil sketchily told they were not allowed to give me the results that Doc would call me Wed night as per his regular patient call schedule...thus leading me to fear the worst since they could not do it.....that in the end all was well. (Gosh, that was a long sentence! Did'ja catch all that?)
I am thankful for help I got from Lauren and Jo at *********** for helping me get an overseas transaction accomplished so a lil surprise prezzie can be delivered tomorrow to Penny, The Queen of England.
And so...thus ends my spurt of energy, I am out of spoons. Maybe I shall take a wee nap before dinner time. Which I am thankful I will not be having to cook as I am coming out of a 48 hr tummy bug. But that is a story for another day.
Keepin on keepin...creekside
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Just another day creekside..
Nothing special today...just trying to get some things done, none of which are working out for me so I am a "webbit" testy, just now.
That said...it is a beautiful Autumn day and I should be out on the deck in the swing enjoying it. Guess that is what I shall do, then.
But did you SEE that I was able to figure out how to post a profile pic?? Yay me...lolol. I know, I know, it ain't rocket science but for me it might as well be so for today, you may call me Dr. Lisa. ; )
That said...it is a beautiful Autumn day and I should be out on the deck in the swing enjoying it. Guess that is what I shall do, then.
But did you SEE that I was able to figure out how to post a profile pic?? Yay me...lolol. I know, I know, it ain't rocket science but for me it might as well be so for today, you may call me Dr. Lisa. ; )
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Thankful Thursday...
Has it been so long since last I blogged? It has been an interesting last few weeks. Lots of ups but then lots of downs, healthwise, making it impossible to think, really. So anyway, I'm back today.
Here are some things I am thankful for today:
I am SOOOOO thankful that my tummy procedure is over with. (I hope NEVER to repeat that particular thing again!)
I am thankful that I have my dining room table cleaned off and have a lovely autumn arrangement sitting there instead of lots of papers and clutter.
I am thankful that I had a week of cooking for all the fam like a real girl before this current tummy issue arose again.
I am thankful that my DD Penny, The Queen of England got to go to the osteopath today.
I am thankful for quality time spent this week with my 2nd DD, the Mother of the Princess and Prince.
I am thankful that said Prince called me this week just to say he loves me! Awww... <3
I am thankful that a Lil Brownie came and scrubbed my floors for me this week. : )
I am thankful for finding on Amazon for only $17, the perfect electric throw to warm my always cold right leg that agonizingly aches if I can't get it warmed up quickly enough.
And I am thankful for my own personal "Dr. House" who refuses to accept that my ongoing tummy issues are just something else I will "have to learn to live with". Even though he puts me thru living hell doing all these tests and procedures, I know he is sincerely seeking a way to help me get my life back. I can respect that.
So for now...hangin in and keepin on keepin on.....creekside
Here are some things I am thankful for today:
I am SOOOOO thankful that my tummy procedure is over with. (I hope NEVER to repeat that particular thing again!)
I am thankful that I have my dining room table cleaned off and have a lovely autumn arrangement sitting there instead of lots of papers and clutter.
I am thankful that I had a week of cooking for all the fam like a real girl before this current tummy issue arose again.
I am thankful that my DD Penny, The Queen of England got to go to the osteopath today.
I am thankful for quality time spent this week with my 2nd DD, the Mother of the Princess and Prince.
I am thankful that said Prince called me this week just to say he loves me! Awww... <3
I am thankful that a Lil Brownie came and scrubbed my floors for me this week. : )
I am thankful for finding on Amazon for only $17, the perfect electric throw to warm my always cold right leg that agonizingly aches if I can't get it warmed up quickly enough.
And I am thankful for my own personal "Dr. House" who refuses to accept that my ongoing tummy issues are just something else I will "have to learn to live with". Even though he puts me thru living hell doing all these tests and procedures, I know he is sincerely seeking a way to help me get my life back. I can respect that.
So for now...hangin in and keepin on keepin on.....creekside
Friday, October 7, 2011
Freaky or Funky Friday???
So which shall it be today?
Dunno...yet.
Altho it is a bit funky so far. But isn't funky in the eyes (or head, as it were) of the beholder? It can mean hip and kewl and groovy. Or smelly. Or off kilter.
So far it has been the latter definition for me. Physically I feel ok but I guess my lovely week has decided to send me the check. Or maybe I was on computer too much yesterday and up way too late last night (2:00 am before my brain would shut itself off) and have TMI syndrome.
And well, smelly could also be the mood of the day as Wonder Boy desperately needs a bath but at 90 lbs, super shedy and hating to be touched with anything even remotely resembling groom...that ain't changin' today. *goggly eyes, breathing shallowly* So maybe it is a combo of all of the above. Whatever...it is another quiet day for me.
I ought to be out in the sunshine and fresh air. It is one of those rare perfect Autumn days that oughtn't to be missed by anyone, the kind that ought to have a National Ordinance protecting it, that states that all businesses, schools, homes and most esp illnesses will be closed for the duration of the perfectness. Yeah, that kind of day. : )
So, guess I will put down Blania the puter, grab my Nook and head outside to continue my Russian spy secret space rocket being built and stolen novel. Don't ask...suffice it to say that I have read several other books by this author and enjoy his style of writing. Russian spy novels, not so much. But I shall perservere because I have faith in the author...lol.
Till next time.....creekside. : )
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Thankful Thursday.
I love Thankful Thursday.
I don't know who originated it nor have I formally written my thanks before today but ever since 1st seeing it on DD's blog, I have (ha...yay me, I figured out how to emphasize w/out having to use caps! Yet another thing to be thankful for!) recognized it and made lists in my mind. (Yes, World. I do still have a mind, though just not as good a one as formerly.)
Today I am most thankful for the truly (for me) spectacular week I have had this past week. I have felt almost like a real girl. : )
I have:
cooked,
chatted on the phone some of the kids with no consequences, even skyeping with one of my girls and littlest guy,
walked my Furkid,
gone to the Punkin Patch,
grocery (thrice!),
played with the kids,
gone to the chiro twice
and last night to the Broadway Play "Wicked"with my Best Guy, and yes Gordy, that means YOU *G* --for whom I am much thankful. Opening night tickets thanks---yes another thing to be thankful for---to my wonderful son, BaseBall Boy. Thank you again, Phil. : D
I am thankful that I have the luxury of having a quiet day today so I won't have to pay a high price for my awesome date last night.
And I am thankful for my faithful furboy who is patiently keeping me company today as I spend the day here under the covers resting.
I am thankful that I have been "chatting" with DD, Penny, The Queen Of England online.
And, yes, I am most assuredly thankful for the internet that made the above possible.
Well, this is by no means all that I am thankful for but surely a goodly list with which to begin.
So bye for now.....creekside
Lisa! Don't forget to say just how thankful you are for the CREEK!! *Lisa shaking finger at self!*
Yes, I am ever so thankful for my lovely creek. : )
I don't know who originated it nor have I formally written my thanks before today but ever since 1st seeing it on DD's blog, I have (ha...yay me, I figured out how to emphasize w/out having to use caps! Yet another thing to be thankful for!) recognized it and made lists in my mind. (Yes, World. I do still have a mind, though just not as good a one as formerly.)
Today I am most thankful for the truly (for me) spectacular week I have had this past week. I have felt almost like a real girl. : )
I have:
cooked,
chatted on the phone some of the kids with no consequences, even skyeping with one of my girls and littlest guy,
walked my Furkid,
gone to the Punkin Patch,
grocery (thrice!),
played with the kids,
gone to the chiro twice
and last night to the Broadway Play "Wicked"with my Best Guy, and yes Gordy, that means YOU *G* --for whom I am much thankful. Opening night tickets thanks---yes another thing to be thankful for---to my wonderful son, BaseBall Boy. Thank you again, Phil. : D
I am thankful that I have the luxury of having a quiet day today so I won't have to pay a high price for my awesome date last night.
And I am thankful for my faithful furboy who is patiently keeping me company today as I spend the day here under the covers resting.
I am thankful that I have been "chatting" with DD, Penny, The Queen Of England online.
And, yes, I am most assuredly thankful for the internet that made the above possible.
Well, this is by no means all that I am thankful for but surely a goodly list with which to begin.
So bye for now.....creekside
Lisa! Don't forget to say just how thankful you are for the CREEK!! *Lisa shaking finger at self!*
Yes, I am ever so thankful for my lovely creek. : )
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
And she's off...
...but not running but at least started. : )
I don't know what in the world makes me think that anything I might have to say would be in the least bit interesting to anyone else but, by golly, I have alot to say. Well...maybe not so MUCH to say but at least the need to say it. *G*
So, for now, that's all I got to say about that.
Keeping it real.....creekside. ; p
I don't know what in the world makes me think that anything I might have to say would be in the least bit interesting to anyone else but, by golly, I have alot to say. Well...maybe not so MUCH to say but at least the need to say it. *G*
So, for now, that's all I got to say about that.
Keeping it real.....creekside. ; p
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